Lostin2007's Blog

Sorry i haven't posted in awhile. I've been running out of time to log on to tblog. I hope everyone is doing ok. ********hugs***********

I thought i would post an update for everyone.

First, I haven't heard anything from the courts or the lawyer. So I guess everything is ok there.

Then i decided that i wanted to take a vacation in October. In order to do that, i had to take up a second job to have enough money to go. lol I know I know, i shouldn't work 2 jobs but i really really really want to take a vacation in October (which will be a NASCAR race, woooohoooo i'm excited). So I'm working back at the lovely McDonald's. It's not a bad place to work, i only work there 2 days a week about 20 hours there. I still take 1 day off a week from everywhere, although lately they haven't really been restful. They told me i can always shorten my hours if i start to get worn out. (working 60 hours between both jobs)

Then I've been packing stuff up into boxes and trying to start cleaning. I gave my 30 day notice to my landlord and i still have no place to go yet. I'm not worried though, it will all work out. If not i'll just rotate houses until i find a place. lol All of my co-workers and my dad have offered a room for a week or two. So I've been cleaning little bit at a time and packing what i can when i can. It's hard to do when i work 6 days a week.

Then on top of that i've been looking for places in the next town, which is where i work. I have a few apartment places that i'm going to go check out on my 1 day off a week.

Then on top of that I've been dog sitting for people i work with. Next week i'm gone all week.

Then on top of that I have to take a test for my work, so i've been trying to study for that. Although i'm not getting much studying done, I might have to push that back a few months.

I've still been following weight watchers. 47 POUNDS LOST!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOO! *DANCES AROUND ROOM SOME MORE*

Overall, things are going good, i'm just so busy. I'm hoping once i get moved things will not be so hectic. I'll try to stop in more often. I miss everyone. Please take care!

First thank you for all of the advice. I appreciate it very much. ****hugs****

I would have posted before this but a few nights my computer wasn't cooperating and then i couldn't get on tblog, from what i've been reading no one could since they had some kind of issue.

I finally have what i want to say to my brother written down. So now the next step is to talk to him at some point. We'll see.

Still nothing from the court or lawyer yet. I guess they were serious when they said the end of August. I was hoping to get the letters earlier.

I'm still following weight watchers. I haven't been getting that much water in. Probably about 50 ounces, not my usual 70 ounces, but it's better than nothing.

GUESS WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'VE LOST 44 POUNDS!!

yep 44 pounds now!! *woooooohoooooooooooooooo ooooo

dances around the room!!!!!!!!

*****hugs*************

WOW! I haven't posted anything in over 10 days but there really hasn't been much to report. I'm still following weight watchers and still stuck on 41 pounds. I haven't heard any news from the lawyer or courts, which it's only been 3 weeks.

I'll try to be brief with my information. I think some of it will help you see what i'm saying and you can give me advice, if you have any. How should i tell my brother that is girlfriend acts exactly like his mother? I'm planning on telling him but i'm just not sure how to word it.

All of my life all i ever heard from my ex-mother  when i was growing up was you're not good enough, you'll be pregnant by the time you're 16, you'll never graduate, you should have done this, you shouldn't have done that, it was all negative. If she wasn't doing that she was trying to guilt you into something. I tried to work it out with her. I laid everything out and i told her what i thought and that i couldn't take the verbal abuse anymore. Well for christmas 2004, i received a diet book. yep a diet book that i didn't ask for, for christmas from her. In that moment, i knew that she would never NEVER love me for me. So i told her i wanted nothing to do with her. Now i'm not asking advice on this issue. I don't regret it for a minute. It has taken me years to get my self-confidence and self-esteem up and to love myself, which i'm still learning. I know lots of people probably won't agree with my decision, but i'm not asking you to agree with that. My brother disowned her too.

I've seen my brother's girlfriend (of 5 years) treat him the same exact way. She is always putting him down, won't let him go out with friends, she tells him how to feel, etc. If he disagrees with her, she won't talk to him until he gives up. I'm telling you it's like deja vu!!!!!

How do i tell him that he is basically dating his mother? I can't keep my mouth shut on this one, i at least have to state my opinion. They are talking about marriage and kids when they get done with school, both of them are only 23 years old.

My brother and i have never really been that close and he is currently mad at me because i told my dad that my brother was buying a car. Apparently it was supposed to be a secret, only i didn't know that and i'm not sure why it was a secret. This is another whole story in itself and it is still unfolding.  The girlfriend is saying that if i was her sister, she wouldn't talk to me.

So i hope i haven't confused you. I know i risk losing my brother but we aren't that close and we never have been. I guess i just feel like i have to say something to him before he decides marriage, or wastes more of his young life, so at least he will know what people are thinking. I'm not the only one that thinks this either, there are friends that do and other family members that do.

So if it was you and your family member, how would you word, your dating your mother.

that's the advice i need.