Lostin2007's Blog

Hello! I'm still amazed that it's been over a year since i blogged. I've been so busy and know that i should blog more often than what i'm doing. I miss everyone! How is everyone? Let's see... I'm still taking classes. I just finished Calculus 1 and Calculus 2 this summer and got A'S IN BOTH!!! YEP A'S IN BOTH!!!!!!!!!!! I worked so hard to get those A's. Anytime i wasn't working i was studying Calculus. I even watched Calculus videos online as my tv time. lol It's what i had to do to understand the material. It paid off in the end. Woooohoooooooooooo! Over the past year, i took 2 other math classes and 2 introduction to Chemistry classes and got A's in those too! Woooohoooo! I'm getting ready to take Biology and Chemistry for the Fall semester, which starts in another week. So no time to rest. lol I'm still working my full time job at 40 hours a week but have quit my part-time job. There is just no way to fit them in. I have to make sure i do really well in my classes. I'm quite sure i will be so busy i won't know if i'm coming or going. I'm will be taking 10 credit hours and working 40 hours. It will be worth it in the end. I'm still working out everyday. I'm doing interval training. I'm still trying to get back on the ww program. I've only gained 5 pounds back but it is easy to let it all go. So i'm starting the plan today. I know i can get back on track and am determined to do so. I'll try to check back more often than what i'm doing. I've been horrible about keeping in contact with everyboy and that includes emails,im and phone calls. lol In fact the only way to really catch me is at work or by text message but will try to check in when i can. Hope everyone is doing well! I miss you all! Have a good weekend. Lostin2007 Yes i'm still kind of lost but have found most of myself. ;)

Hello! I didn't realize that I hadn't logged on since the beginning of the month. Alot has happened and i'm getting busier and busier.

I moved into my new apartment on August 12th. It only took me 1&1/2 car trips to get all of my stuff here. I still think i need to downsize some more. lol I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY NEW APARTMENT!!! It is so nice and quiet here, it's hard to believe that i live in an apartment complex. Cummins is the biggest employer here so most of the tenants here work there and alot of them are international employees. It is so neat to see the different cultures. I have a balcony. I love to sit on i when i'm home which isn't much. It is so nice. I LOVE IT!!  So now i'm a city girl, woohooo!

One of the best things  is i live so close to my 1st job that i walk to work and it only takes me about 5 minutes. So i'm saving gas money, wear and tear on my car, and getting exercise. 

I'm taking 2 classes right now. I'm taking a math class and a chemistry class. Both of these classes are necessary for me to be on track to take the pre-pharmacy classes next fall, assuming i do well in these classes. I love my chemistry class. I'm think it is fascinating to learn about how chemistry is used and i've only been to 1 class.

My math class is very challenging. It's an Algebra and Trigonometry class and some parts are really easy, other parts are difficult. So we'll see how i do in that one. I had my first quiz the other day and i'm scared how i did. I study that subject every night.

I'm still working both of my jobs. Hopefully next week i will be able to go back to just working 60 hours between the two. 40 at the full time job and 20 at the part-time job. For awhile i've been working 70 hours. I have decided that the weekends before my math tests i will be taking the weekend off from my 2nd job because i have to do well on those tests. Since I struggle with math, I know it will take me longer to study for them.

I'm sill maintaining my weight and haven't lost anymore. I'm just now getting back into the routine of eating enough.

So that's why i haven't been around this month. I know i'm just going to get busier and busier as the semester goes. I will to stop in when i can. Hopefully i will still be standing by the end of the semester.

********hugs************* *

Take care!  

Wow, it's been awhile since i signed on. I've been working crazy hours.

I'VE LOST 75 POUNDS!!! WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO! *dances around the room**

I'm still following weight watchers but i've incorporated more protein into my diet, so it's kind of like the south beach diet but only it's weight watchers. lol

I went to the Brickyard this weekend. I had a BLAST on Friday and Saturday. The race was ridiculously BORING!!!!!! So boring i will never go to that race again.I understand why they kept throwing cautions and i didn't want anyone hurt but it was a LONG race. lol By the time it was over, I felt like i was wearing a tire. lol (major tire issues at this particular race, if you didn't know) I got up at 5am all weekend so i could see as much and do as much as i could. I walked at least 4-5 miles every day. I got to meet my #1 driver again, Kurt Busch. He is so nice. He was doing an appearance up on the North side of Indianapolis. I go to go on a hot lap around the track. IT WAS SO COOL!!! We only went 120mph but it was so cool. I was really impressed that the drivers go alot faster than that. I can't even imagine driving that fast. It was a chevy mailbu type car with a chevy person driving, not the race cars, you have to pay big money to go in those kind of cars. Practice and qualifying was awesome too. I got to sit on the pit side and watch them take off and come back in. Overall it was a great weekend. I LOVED IT!!

I should be able to move into my new apartment within the next 2 weeks. I'll know exactly when sometime this week. WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'M GOING TO BE A CITY GIRL!!

I'm still talking to a the school. I might have to take 2 classes to be where i need to be by next fall. I should know more in a week or two. lol It should be interesting. lol

That's all i know for now. Sorry i haven't been on more, been so busy lately and i'm only getting busier.

*hugs* Take care everyone!

 

Wooooohooooooooo! *Dances around the room*

 I'm moving to a new city in the middle of August. It's the same town i work in and will be able to walk to work because apartments are right behind my 1st job. wooohoooooooooooo

I'M MOVING!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO O! I'm going to be a city girl. lol

My 2nd job is going much much better at the other location. It is so much busier but i like it that way and everyone is so nice. They have to tear my original one down and we should be open by November.

I've decided that i'm going to take a class this fall and still work both jobs. It might get interesting but i have to feel like i'm accomplishing something. Maybe it's fear that if i don't my dreams will slip through my fingers. I'm not sure what it is but i just feel i have to take one and i know i can do it. It might be tough but i'm going to do it.  I'm not sure what class yet because have to talk to the school.

 I'm going to the Brickyard NASCAR race! woooohoooo I can't wait!!!

I'VE LOST 71 POUNDS!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! 

 That's all i know for now. wooohooo

Hope everyone has a fabulous week. *hugs*

Let's see...

First of all, I'm officially out of the flooded apartments. They gave me all of my security deposit back including my non-refundable pet deposit, which was extremely nice. I was impressed. They are going to refund June's rent once they get the insurance checks, so that could be months down the road before i ever see that. It's been so much better having that situation gone, because now i don't have to worry about what is happening with them. :)

My second job is going better. I started at a different McDonald's that is so busy it's crazy but i like it much better. The employees and managers are extremely nice so far. I got there at a 11 on both days this weekend and before i knew it, it was 4pm and they told me to go take a break. lol So this one is definitely busier and makes the day go really fast. Also alot of the crew i was working with before at the flooded store will be at this busier one.

They have decided that they are going to tear down the other McDonald's i was working at and rebuild it. It is supposed to reopen in November. I can't wait. lol I know i only worked there part-time but i miss it. It was more of a laid back one that had it's busy moments but you could get to know the customers better.

I haven't heard anything about the new apartments yet. I'll probably go and talk to them again this week and see what they know and where i am on the waiting list.

Oh and in case i haven't mentioned it, I'VE LOST 69 POUNDS NOW!!!

*WOOHOOO DANCES AROUND THE ROOM* I'm still doing weight watchers but experimenting with a more of a low-carb way of eating and it seems to be working!!

 

*hugs* hope everyone has a fabulous week

FYI-VENTING and i have to get it out. IT'S LONG!

So i've been working at a different Mcdonald's since mine was flooded. I've never really dreaded McDonald's or hated it until now. The one i worked at last weekend and this weekend is horrible. The workers there treat you like you are the evil stepchildren. They act like we are trying to take their jobs and we aren't. In fact, we are just extra people that don't count against their payroll, we are still getting paid out of the other store.  They are so rude and are always yelling or nitpicking about every little thing. "You can't do it that way, why are you doing it that way, you can't do that, etc.......They are yelling at everyone. Nobody likes it there.

I finally broke down today because i just couldn't take it anymore. All of the nitpicking and yelling at me, i couldn't deal with it.  I'm sorry but it's not worth it to be treated like that, especially since i only work weekends. I have enough going on and this is supposed to be an easy going part-time job.

I've worked at the other McDonald's for quite awhile now and the management there are relaxed and easy going. They pretty much don't say anything as long as you are doing your job.

So i called my manager from my home store and talked to her. It's ridiculous to be treated like that and i told her i cannot and will not go back to that store to work. She said there are 2-3 other stores in the area she can send me to that needs help. They didn't want to lose me as a worker and my home store should be opening up at some point in the future, they still don't know how long yet.

I know i can be overly senisitive but i've managed to change that for the most part. I just couldn't deal with it anymore. So she gave me permission to leave and take the rest of the day off. With everything happening with me trying to move out of my apartment, working 20 hours at Mcd's and working 50 hours a week at my pharmacy job right now, i couldn't take the crap.

So the next weekend i go to work, i will be in a busier store. She said that it would be one that you basically stand in one spot and you don't move and before you know it, it's time to go home and she assured me that they are much much nicer there. She also said she couldn't stand to work at that mean one either but she is in management she can tell them what she thinks. I'm just an employee.

I did manage to get most of my stuff out of my apartment today. So the day wasn't totally wasted.

Now if you just read all of that, thanks for reading. I had to get it out of my system.

I went and talked to my landlords on Friday. They are letting people out of their leases early if you find someplace else to live. The landlords were waiting for an air purification test to come back, basically that is where they test the quality of the air in the upstairs apartments. They called me Friday afternoon and said they got the results back and they were ok but not normal. They then went on to say, if you want to move back in, you have to sign a release form that says you will not hold them responsible for any illness you may get for breathing in the air.

HELLO! I'm sorry but if i have to sign a release form to move back in, NO WAY AM I GOING BACK. I know there is mold growing downstairs and it has to be affecting the air. They still haven't been able to clean any of the mud/sludge off the stairs,walls, or floors.

So I'm going to give them my notice on Monday and i'll have my stuff out by the weekend. I can stay at my dad's until my new apartment opens up.

I stopped by the apartments right behind my work to give them my updated status and in a matter of 2 weeks, i went from #3 on the wait list to #2. There should be something opening up at the end of July or August. They weren't affected by the flood at all since they are on a hill. My first job wasn't affected either because it sits on the hill right before the apartments.

 *hugs*

Hello!

Thank you for being there. I appreciate it.

Things are pretty much the same. I still have no idea when i will be able to get back in my apartment. I've talked to the landlords a few times but they know nothing. They are only allowing the people who live in the upstairs stay there if they have nowhere to go. Otherwise it isn't an option.

They still have to wait for the health department to do their tests. Now since FEMA is in the county, they have to come in and have their say. Then after everyone has their say they will have to clean everything, stairwells, floors, and ceilings. Then they will have to redo the first floor apartments. So basically I know nothing and it's going on 2 weeks already. So who knows when I will get back in there.

I'm still staying at my dad's. I still feel like i'm intruding somewhat but have talked to them about it and they don't think that at all. I'm hardly ever here except to sleep because i work so much. lol They told me it's like i just come visit and then i'm gone all day long. lol So i do feel better about that situation.

My 2nd job is going to remodel. They should be back open in about 20 days. So that's good news. Meanwhile, i can work at other McDonald's to get my hours in.

So basically i know nothing but things are better. At least emotionally they are better.

*hugs*

 

 

I finally broke down in tears this evening. I've managed to keep them in all week and i just couldn't take it anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful that I didn't lose anything in the flood. All of my stuff is ok because i live on the second floor but i still don't have a place to live. It's been a week and i don't know anything about what's going on. It is so frustrating. The landlord can't do anything until the county government does their part. The government has to give the ok that the building is ok and that it ok to start repairing/cleaning it. So it still has all of the mud/sludge in the buildings and all over the stairs and there are bugs in the building. Not to mention, huge black spiders in there. And they weren't there before the flood.

I've been staying at my mom and dad's house. I'm grateful that they are letting me stay there. At the same time i feel like i'm intruding. Although i'm not here alot except to mainly sleep because i work so much but i still feel like i'm intruding.

There are a couple of my neighbors that have moved back in because they have nowhere to go. So they are walking in and out of they mud/sludge whatever it is everyday, which is a major health hazard. I just can't see how they can do it. I get so grossed out anytime i go to step foot near the building because it is so nasty and it smells so bad. Not to mention the mud/sludge stuff.

I know i'm rambling at this point but i'm just venting. This evening i got to thinking since i felt like i was intruding i would think about moving back in. Although i don't think the landlords want that. That's what started the whole crying thing. I just can't do it. i can't go back to an apartment building that is like that. I just can't.

It is so hard not having a home. I feel like i'm intruding but i have nowhere to go.

 

Also I'm not sure about my 2nd job either. It was also flooded so bad that they are talking about tearing it down. Now they are willing to let me work at one of the other ones (2 more in town) but i'm not sure what's going on there either. I should know more tomorrow when i go to work. I need my 2nd job so i can save money to go back to school. I'm hoping they can use me every weekend that i need to work. So that isn't helping my tears either. Just too much stuff all at once. 

On top of all that i hear people's flood stories all day long at my 1st job, which i don't mind listening to them. It just makes it hard to hold the tears back.  I know they need to share their story with someone to help themselves deal with it.

 

So i guess i don't know what else to do but give in to the tears and maybe it might help to let them out instead of keeping them all bottled up. I've been crying for 2 hours straight now. I haven't cried this long in forever, probably since my whole bankruptcy thing. I can't seem to stop them, they just keep coming. I think i might go lay down and see if i can fall asleep.

I did do one good thing before the flood happened. I went and applied for an apartment really close to my work, since i was spending so much in gas. The only problem with that is there is a wait list but i'm #3 on it. Hopefully near August they will have something open up. That is when my current lease will be up. I'm hoping and praying that it works out.

*hugs* thanks for listening.

Hey everyone!

I've been flooded out of my home. I live in Southern Indiana and we are flooded. Luckily I didn't lose anything because i live in an upstairs apartment. 

I was able to go in today and get some clothes and necessities, but had to take a back way to get there. The front entrance is still flooded. There is a solid layer of mud caked over everything. Right now, they have the electricity off until further notice. They are supposed to have inspectors and insurance people out on monday to evaluate the buildings to make sure there wasn't any structure damage. I'm not sure when or if i will be able to go back.

For right now, i'm staying at my dad's house. I'm so thankful that i do have my car, my clothes and a place to stay. Some people don't even have that. There are so many people who have lost everything. In my apartment complex, there are so many cars that are covered with mud,dirt and water dripping out of them. 

I only cried once today. I was getting some stuff together and i saw a truck loaded with some stuff taking it to the dumpster. They were some of the unlucky ones because they lived on the 1st floor. They lost everything. It was so sad to see that.

That's all i know for now.  It's a widespread flooding, Seems like most of Southern Indiana is going to get it at some point.

Just wanted to post a little update. Will keep you posted on anything else.

 *hugs*

Hi! How is everyone?

I'm good. :)  I still haven't lost anything. So now i'm in the process of going over everything i've been eating. I know i was calculating an energy drink wrong, so that was probably hurting me some. I know i've been maintaining but i'm ready to start losing again. I know i'm getting ready to lose, the scale keeps going back and forth between two numbers. Maybe i've gained some muscle too, They always say that weighs more than fat. I'm bound and determined to lose, especially since i have alot more to go. I know something is changing because my pants are starting to get loose.

I've been walking on my lunch breaks and my days off using my little mp3 player. I still love it!! So probably exercise about 3-5 days a week, depending on if it rains or not. I don't walk in the rain. lol I've also been doing the firm strength training part. They say to start out slowly and just use the 1 pound weight, well i think i'm past that already. It feels like i'm not lifting anything. lol So the next step is to go to the 2 pound weight. woohooo!

I've been doing a little experiment. I've been having alot of trouble sleeping. My mind just races and i can't stop , so i only get like 5 hours a sleep a night. So for the past week i've started reading an hour before i want to go to sleep, It relaxes me enough that i get so tired i fall right to sleep and i wake up when my alarm goes off.  I've been sleeping about 7 hours a night woohooo! I'm starting to feel so much better.  I'm going to continue to do that until it doesn't work anymore.

The book i've been reading right now is The Grapes of Wrath. It is so good. I've only read about 100 pages but it is an excellent book.  

I'm still working about 70 hours a week saving money for school. So nothing new with that.

I'm off to read. Hope you have a great week!  

*hugs* 

Hi!!

 I got a new mp3 player! It is so cute! And it is so tiny. lol It's the size of a car alarm keychain and it already has a clip on it so I don't have to be a special case for it. I LOVE IT! Best of all, it actually works. I got it at walmart for about $40, here's a picture of it . It is so easy to use too.

So I've been walking on my lunch breaks at work and then have been using the firm strength training at home. The scale is getting ready to move too. It keeps going back and forth between two numbers. lol I don't count it unless the number stays the same for a week. lol I can tell a difference though because my pants are getting loose and I'm now wearing an XL shirt!!! Woooohooooooooooooooooo! *dances around the room* (I used to be in a 3x.)

Other than that, not much else is new, just working alot and saving money for school.  I'm trying to get rest when i can. I know it will all be worth it in the end! I'm off to sleep, i'm exhausted.

*hugs* 

 

Wow i got lost again. lol

Not much new going on here right now. Still working 70 hour work weeks.

I've still been following weight watchers. I still haven't lost any though, which is very frustrating. Although, a weight watcher friend pointed out to me, that i should be proud. I'm like why i haven't lost in months and months. She said because you've maintained the weight. You haven't gained a single pound back. I hadn't thought about it like that before. So I'm not as frustrated because i have maintained. woooohooooo go me!

I did learn a very important lesson. lol I recently bought The Firm, which is a exercise system, comes with weights and 4 dvd's that consist of aerobics and strength training. I bought it on clearance at work. lol It was originally $50 and i paid $13 for it. It's a very intense workout. So intense that it says it guarantees visible results in 10 workouts. I truly believe this is possible. Last week i did an hour work out of strength training. I felt great and thought wow that wasn't that hard. OMG I HURT SO BAD THE NEXT MORNING. I was taking ibuprofen for days. It took me 3 days to return back to normal. rofl I had to take a break from it. lol

So the lesson learned is this, START SLOWLY when starting an exercise plan. If you don't normally workout, don't do an hour's worth of strength training. rofl. You would think that would be common sense but i was excited and knew i could do it. I started using it again Monday night and only doing 30 minutes worth of exercise. I did another 30 minutes tonight. I figure i'll go with 30 minutes a day and build up to an hour's worth.

I know it's just a matter of time before I start losing again. I can feel it!  

Not much else going on here. Hope everyone is doing ok.

*hugs* 

LOL I think this is funny.

I was sitting on my floor the other night stretching and i saw a bump around the ankle area. I was like wow, what did i do to myself? ROFL IT'S MY ANKLE BONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, I thought i hurt myself and it's really my ankle bone starting to show. IT'S TRUE, I HAVE AN ANKLE!!! Who know i had those under all of this. rofl I haven't seen my ankle bone, well i can't remember the last time i saw my ankle bone. lol wooooohooooo! go me!!

Moving on....

Still working alot and saving money. Still shopping around for a mp3 player and still trying to rest when i can.

I don't really have anything else to post about right now. I had to tell my ankle bone story. 

*hugs* 

I had to return my new mp3 player because i couldn't get it to download. It was missing a portion of the programming. I took it to my dad and he couldn't get it to download any songs either. So i returned it and will hopefully get my money back without a hassle since i ordered it online. I still haven't decided if i'm going to get one just like it or maybe shop around some more.

So in the mean time i've been incorporating more exercise into my daily routine. I've been taking the stairs when possible, parking at the end of the parking lot and walking extra and jogging from my car to the front of my building when i don't have my hands full. It's not that far of a distance, maybe 30-40 feet? but i figure any amount of exercise is better than none. :)

Do you ever just wish you could make people listen to you when you are trying to give them advice? One of my friends just will not listen to me. She is talking about having weight loss surgery. She has to weigh over 300 pounds.

Now my personal opinion is that i don't agree with those kind of surgeries. One reason is because of the complications of the surgery. Another reason is because i'm a member of some weight loss boards and there are people who weigh over 400 pounds and are losing weight by paying attention to what they eat and are exercising, which is fantastic. I find it very inspiring to read their stories and see their progress pictures.

The main reason I do not agree with this surgery is because some people think it is a quick fix. It will fix everything. She hasn't tried to do any of the other programs that are out there. In fact when i tried to suggest that i help her she tells me that she just doesn't have any willpower and that surgery will fix it all.

I'm sorry but no surgery is going to fix it all. You have to have willpower no matter what you do. Just because you have some surgery doesn't mean that it is going to fix your willpower. You have to be willing to work hard for what you want.

Now in some circumstances yes surgery is a good thing and can help. I'm not saying all of them are bad. I just think that if you automatically have the mindset that having surgery is going to cure your willpower then you are just setting yourself up. Her husband had the same surgery a few years ago and he has gained over half of his weight back. You know why, because he never changed his eating habits. The surgery was going to fix his willpower and guess what it didn't.

I know i just went off there for a little bit but i'm just frustrated. I just wish i could make her listen to me but she already has her mind made up. I've tried talking to her until i'm blue in the face and she is still going to have the surgery if she can get her insurance to pay. Who knows she might prove me wrong and i hope for her sake she does prove me wrong.

Thanks for letting me vent. I had to vent to someone.

*hugs*

Wooohoooo! I'm all better now! It took me 2&1/2 weeks to get over whatever i had. I feel like a normal person now. lol

Let's see...

The school thing- I'm not sure what i'm doing yet. My main problem is financing. So still trying to figure something out.

I'm still working at least 70 hours but it's ok because i need as much money as i can get, since i may have to pay for my pre-pharmacy classes myself.

I'm back to regular food, no more sprite and crackers for me. lol wooohoooo! I'm back to following weight watchers and getting all of my points in and drinking my water.

I just got a mp3 player so i can start walking now on my lunch breaks. The best part is it was free because i used a gift card to buy it. wooooooooooooohoooooooooo oooo! I'm so excited! I've been wanting to walk for awhile now but i get bored so easily without something to listen to, not to mention the fact that's it's been too cold for me to walk. I'm a wimp because i need warm weather to walk in. lol

I can't think of anything else right now. I just wanted to post a little update since i'm feeling so much better.

*hugs* 

Wow, it's been awhile since i've signed on. Let's see, where do i begin...

I've been working non-stop, which is like 70-80 hours a week between both jobs. Today is my first day off since Feb. 24th. I ran a few errands and then i took a 3 hour nap. I'm exhausted. Hopefully, I can start getting one day off a week now. We have 1 part-time employee hired and the one that is on medical leave might be coming back in the next few weeks. To compensate for working so much, I've been trying to go to sleep a little earlier every night to try to get some rest. Some nights it works and other nights it doesn't. Even though I know i'm exhausted, I know it is all worth it. I know i will be able to at least take a class or two this fall so it is going to be worth it.

That leads me to my next topic. I filled out my FASFA a few weekends ago and got word back that I've met my maximum loan amount in undergraduate student loans. That was depressing. In fact I cried about that for a few hours. I can't qualify for "Professional degree loans" until i'm in the pharmacy school. So i was going to use regular student loans to help pay for my pre-pharmacy classes. That plan has come and gone. I don't want to sit out another year. So I'm trying to figure out what to do. There are always private loans but they usually check your credit and since I just had my bankruptcy finalized, that doesn't sound to promising. I will try to apply for those anyway just to see if i can get one. Maybe since i'm going back to school they will go for it but I'm not going to hold my breath on that one.

Another alternative is on the Today show the other day they listed scholarships on 3 different websites. There are thousands of scholarships that go unused every year and they have scholarships for the non-traditional students. So I'm starting to research that aspect. Maybe I might find something that might help. Any amount would help at this point.

The other alternative is that I might only take 1 class in the fall and 1 in the spring and continue working both jobs for another year. Now that will only work if I can cut my hours back down to 60 like i was doing before. I do have to have time to study.  By that point I should have enough money to pay for all of my pre-pharmacy classes. I'm not too thrilled by this option but I want to take at least 1 class to start getting back into it. I want to get the whole process started. I'm sure it won't be a pleasant experience to do it this way but it's plan C.

I'm going to continue to save every cent I can and research these aspects and see what I can come up with. I guess if it's meant to happen, it will. I want it to happen so bad that's why I don't want to sit out another year. I also applied to the school and am waiting to hear back from them. Since I graduated from there with my Business degree, I'm hoping it will be a quick you're approved since i did graduate with a GPA of 3.2.

So that is where I am right now. Any suggestions?

*hugs* to everyone.  

 

I got lost. lol yep lost in work.

I've been working more hours at my full-time job because we are short-handed. So this week by the end of Friday i will have put in about 60 hours (in 5 days). Thank goodness i took the weekend off from my part-time job. Smart thinking on my  since i'm already exhausted and burned out. lol It looks like i will be working lots of hours for awhile because we had one employee get fired and another one is on medical leave. So who knows when my next day off will be after this weekend.  I have to go back to working my regular weekends at my part-time job. It's ok though, at least i will have money for school.

I've also been trying to get paperwork in order so that i can go back to school. I had to get my taxes done last weekend so that this weekend when i'm off i can fill out the FASFA (financial aid). Then i need to apply to school and go through any paperwork for that. I also have to get some continuing education classes done for my job so that i can keep my license updated.

I'm hoping that I can take a summer class and get things started. I'm excited to go and do well. wooohooo!

I've also been exercising still but no more weight loss yet. Although, i have lost inches, so that's excellent. I can't wait for it to get warmer so that i can start walking.

Just a little update. I'm off to sleep, i'm exhausted.

**hugs** 

I haven't posted in a while, it's so easy to lose track of time.

I've been working alot of hours at one job but i did cut down at my part-time job until March. I still work every 

other weekend. So i get 1 extra day off every other week. lol I'm not sure that is really cutting down though.

I know i'm burned out with the whole situation. So this month i decided that i'm only working there one more day this 

month and taking the rest of the weekends off. I just need some extra time off to relax. I'm still working at least 40

at my full-time job. Once March gets here, i will be back to the grindstone, which means i will go back to having

1 day off a week. I have to get money saved for school. When i'm burned out and tired like this, i start to wonder

if this is all worth it. I mean i know it's worth it but sometimes it's really hard only getting one day off a week. I got

used to having more days off when i was only working one job.  So my plan is to be as lazy as possible the next

couple of weekends. lol

I've started exercising. I've been doing strength training which ranges from abs to lifting weights. I'm really

impressed with myself because i've done it every night. I checked a book out from the library and follow the

pictures and directions. It probably takes me 15-20 minutes each night but i know it's worth it. I can already tell

a difference and i've only been doing it about a week. I can't wait for it to warm up so i can start walking and maybe

jog a little. I really want to start exercising but i'm too much of a wimp to go out in the cold and i 'm too cheap to buy

a membership at a gym. Not to mention the fact that i would never have time to go to the gym. My plan is that once

it gets warmer, i will walk on my lunch breaks or walk/jog after i get off work. I'm not one to get up early unless

I absolutely have to, so exercising before work is out of the question. lol 

That's all for now, i just thought i would post a little something.

*hugs* 

 

So I've finally decided to post my weight loss figures. I think it's good to put them in writing and to actually see the progress i've made. It's not an easy thing to admit when you're overweight, how much you exactly weigh. I know i don't have to post them but i'm proud of what i've accomplished so far. Although i still have a long way to go. I'm excited to post them now and no longer ashamed of those numbers.

On January 1, 2007 I decided that i was going to focus on me and make some changes. One of those changes was to lose weight.

My starting weight was 261 pounds.

My current weight is 195 pounds. woooohooooo! go me!

That is a 66 pound weight loss!! wooooohoooooooo!!!

I didn't ever think i would be under the 200 pound mark. I think it's great!

I haven't replaced any of my shirts yet so i'm not sure what size i wear in those. 

My pants in the beginning were a very tight 24, probably should have been a 26.

I went pant shopping the other day and i can wear a size 16 plus pant!!!! woooooooooooohoooooooooo! !!

 I was so happy that i started jumping up and down in the fitting room and then i started crying. lol

The last time i was able to wear that size was in 2001. It's been a very long time. a size 16 plus, wow. *dances around the room* wooohoooo!

I can't wait for the weather to get warmer so i can start walking.

Now my next goal is to shop in the regular section. wooohoooo!

*hugs*  

 

I recently re-read some posts that were from last year. WOW It was so weird reading some of them because it felt like it was forever ago. I vaguely remember feeling like nothing mattered anymore. I think i described it as being at the bottom of a pool and not being able to swim to the top. It feels like it's been years and it's only been a year at the most. It's amazing how much i've changed already. I'm nowhere near the same person i was then, which is a very good thing. :) I've learned a lot about myself and am still learning.

A friend recently asked me if i was going to change my name since 2007 was going to be gone. I think they suggested found2008 or something along those lines.  I'm going to leave my name the way it is because 2007 represents something to me. 2007 was the year i started focusing on what I needed. 2007 was a rough year for me but i've learned so much about myself and how strong i am. I will always be lostin2007 because i am still lost in a sense and i'm trying to find myself. I'm on my way to discovering who i am but i think i still have a long way to go. (i know we never stop discovering who we are) I don't mind being lost. Being lost isn't a bad thing as long you try to find yourself. 

Also, i'm lostin2007 because in 2007  I LOST 65 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOO! Go me!!!!!!!!

I finally got 2 days off in a row. *shock* Yeah, it's true 2 days off in a row but i had to fight to get them. Basically telling everyone that i'm turning my phone off and do not call me. I've also decided to take an extra weekend off from my part-time job just so i can have some additional time off. I figure since it's winter and they are cutting hours there is no since in me going in for 5 hours each day every weekend. Once they start increasing hours again, i'm sure i will be right back working as much as possible so i can go back to school.

 *hugs*

 

I made most of my 2007 resolutions come true!! woooohoooo go me! So now here are my 2008 resolutions. I know I have alot but I know I can make these happen.

1. Lose MORE Weight
2. Eat Healthier
3. Start Exercising on a regular basis
4. Drink more water
5. Continue to follow Weight Watchers
6. Quit working 2 jobs
7. Go back to school
8. Get the grades I want and need
9. Take more time for myself and enjoy life. Spend time with family and friends.
10. Continue to find myself and have fun doing it.
11. Make my dreams and goals come true.

I'm sure there's more but this is enough to get me started.

Hello! How is everyone? I'm good. Things are finally calming down, i think.

I know it's been a few days since i posted last. I'm finally back to working 60-70 hour work weeks instead of 70-80 hour work weeks. I've decided that i need to take one weekend off a month from my part-time job just to take some time off and enjoy life. It's that time of year where everyone decides to cut hours since it's generally a slower time so i figure taking off a weekend will help them and most of all help me. :) It's kind of scary to do that because the whole reason i'm working a part-time job is so i can go back to school in August. It will all work out though. I know it will. I've calculated it and as long as i continue to be money smart i should have enough to pay for my first semester if i can't get student loans.

I can't wait to have extra time off. wooohoooo! I've had 2 days off this week and i'm like wow, what do i do now. lol Usually I only have 1 day off a week. It's been nice this week. I've been trying to catch up on sleep, emails, and many other things.

I haven't lost anymore but i haven't gained either. I'm still working on getting back into the water habit. It's hard to remember to drink water when you're so busy at work. I'm working on it. :)

 

*hugs* to everyone

Wow, I haven't posted in forever. I've still been working 75-80 hour work weeks. I did finally get
a day off today but that is because i called into my second job. I woke up with a horrible migraine.
I haven't had one that bad in forever. So i slept most of the day and i feel so much better. The new person is supposed to start this week and i'm supposed to have a day off this week. I can't wait. I won't know what to do. My last day off before today was November 15th. Yeah, not good i know but i do have a reason why i'm working so much.

I've decided to go back to school starting in August 2008. Yes, i know i already have a bachelor's degree in Business Management but i don't want to do that. I've always wanted to be able to help people in someway but not where i have to touch them or see blood and all of that stuff. Since i've started losing all of this weight i've been googling like crazy. Why does the body do this, or that? etc. How does this medicine work and the side effects?  I've been working in the pharmacy for years now and i've decided that i'm going to go back to school to be a Pharmacist. I'm really good at what i do and the pharmacists i've worked and work with think it's a great idea. 

Yep, that's right, a Pharmacist, which means about 6 more years of school. I do have to get really high grades in the pre-pharmacy classes before i can be accepted into a Pharmacy school. So i figure that will be the real test. If i can get the grades i need and want, then I'm going to do everything i can to get into Pharmacy school.

So the reason i'm working so much now is that i might have to pay for my first semester all by myself. I'm not sure how the whole student loan process works when you've declared bankruptcy. I will call them to find out and i'm hoping that the most i have to wait to borrow again is a year, which is fine because i'll be able to pay for my first semester.  I have a whole list of things that i have to call different people about and start the process.

I'm not just working for fun. lol I do have dreams and goals and i hope that i can make them happen. It's going to take a lot of hard work but i know i can do this. I'm still lost but i'm slowly finding out who i am and what makes me happy. :)

By the way, I'VE LOST 65 POUNDS NOW! I slowed my weight loss down so it's not coming off as fast. I felt like i was losing too fast and i DO NOT want excess skin. They say that the slower you lose the better it is for skin, that way it shrinks with you.  woooohoooo go me! Next goal is 70 pounds.

That's all for now. *hugs*